Lately I have been hearing a lot of people say, "I can't wait for 2009 to be over, it was horrific." My initial reaction to this was, "why was 2009 so horrible?"; but then of course I'm reminded of the awful situation so many families have been going through: unexpected layoffs, sinking investment values, foreclosures...
I guess it's a little difficult for me to understand because even at the end of my very "worst" years, I've never thought "wow I can't wait until this year is over". Every single event in our life shapes who we are: happy times, bad times, painful ones, joyous ones... and while I'm always happy to celebrate the arrival of a "new" year, I tend to reflect upon the year that's left us and hope that I've become a better person as a result of what I've gone through during the year; that I've done God's will through my actions and thoughts.
Now, I know that Sam and I have been very blessed with good jobs, great families, great friends, and now a home. I often find myself praying that we don't lose focus, that we remain humble, that we don't get lost in the race that life seems to become for so many people, and that God and family remain our #1 priority.
Have I become a better person this year? I hope so... just as much as I see some positive changes in myself, I also see so much room for improvement. In certain ways, I consider myself: a hypocrite; impatient; quick-tempered; selfish; cruel; vain. I guess I'm seeing 2010 as an opportunity to honor God through my thoughts and actions, to catch myself in the midst of sin and pick myself up toward a life closer to Him.
P.S.: Our second anniversary is coming up... I love you Sam, so MUCH. :)
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